Not in the Mood

Today is a critical day.  I am not in the mood to write.  Not a single word.  But I will not let that stop me!

Sure, the post will be less than stellar, but I know that if I skip today I will guarantee the following:

• I will disappoint myself and my goal for 30 posts in 30 days;
• I will be less likely to write again tomorrow - whether or not I'm in the mood;
• I will probably lose focus and not even visit the NaNoBloMo website to visit other blogs.

I don't want that, as I have made it so much farther than in previous attempts.  (Well, there have only been two - but they were valiant efforts!)


I don't have much time left at work, which is great.  I have to stop at the library on my way home to return some DVDs, but that shouldn't take all that long - I hope.  Maybe I'll pick up one or two for fun.  At the moment, all I want to do right now is go home, make dinner and read a bit before going to bed.  I have a strange feeling that my husband isn't happy with me.  I haven't spoken to him all day, but when I just tried to call him, his phone was down.  (We are waiting on some money to come in before we can pay it.)

I could be overreacting - it's not something I am unaccustomed to doing, but I hate that feeling.  It makes me unhappy.. Now that I think of it, that's probably the reason I have no desire to write today.  Huh... Whoulda thunk it?  I guess now I just need to get off this pity party train and BE HAPPY!  I can't let one person bring me down - even if it's my hubby!  I guess writing today was a good idea!

Thirteen Minutes

That is what is left of my day. Thirteen minutes.

When I leave here, I have to go to the post office, drop off the office mail, and head to Wal*Mart. Which is oh so much fun right after work! (Did you sense the sarcasm there?)

I know that I don't have to be in there all that long, but it's the idea that I cannot go right home, kick off my heels - which I never wear, and just watch a bit of mindless television with my husband before it's time to eat dinner. I made chili. It's going to be fantastic.

Another reason I bring this up, is that these are my last, truly productive minutes of the day. While I am at work, I can think of nothing but what I want to accomplish when I arrive home. I want to work on our budget - which needs a LOT of work, since I have never done one before; my resume needs *serious* work. Although I have no idea where to begin on either, task - they are things I think about.

But then I get home and all is lost. I bask in the company of my husband and our dogs - who I swear are alien beings brought here to suck the motivation out of anyone in a 20' area! (The dogs, not the husband!)

Three Basset Hounds and a Bulldog.... They aren't all that lazy (well, the Bulldog is...) but when they want to sleep and cuddle, they look so comfortable, so adorable, that you want to do nothing but hug them and squeeze them and call them George!

I must do something to break this habit! Any ideas? Sell the dogs? Stuff them? Sell the Husband? I need Help, people!